Wake Up Slow…
August 8, 2011, 7:40 pm
Filed under: Dreams


They are too random to not mean anything.
Twice I have had a dream about being pregnant and worried about the fetus slipping out.  I wake up with my legs clenched together.  What the heck is that supposed to mean? I’ve had dreams about being pregnant my whole life, even when I was a kid, but nothing like this.

The first one was last week and I was supposed to be the surrogate to my brother and his girlfriend.  I was carrying their baby but I was worried about the baby coming out too soon.

That same night, I dreamt Micheal had disappeared and I couldn’t find him anywhere.  There were two black limos that pulled up to our one-room house. They dropped off a really scary prisoner and tried to convince me this was Micheal.  Some lady who reminded me of Lara Croft Tomb Raider came to save me from the scary prisoner.  Somehow I thought this was Micheal reincarnate.  She felt a lot like him in her presence.  Which, honestly, is quite humorous in my waking life.  The scary prisoner was loosing his hair and was really greasy and had human teeth for finger nails.

I woke up freaking out to Micheal and scared he had gone away.  I told him about the dream and he told me he had a dream about black limos.  Weird.  I can’t tell you how often we have the same dreams in the same night or at least common threads in our dreams.  What is that about?

This morning, I had dreamt that I was pregnant but I didn’t believe I was pregnant.  I was concerned because I had drank some wine the night before (and in my waking life, I actually did) and I was worried the baby would have Fetal Alcohol Syndrome.  Again, I was concerned the baby wasn’t coming out the normal way of water breaking and contractions.  I was ready to be induced but my belly looked like I was only three months pregnant but I had all of the stretch marks.  The doctor was trying to decide to if he should induce me first or perform the knee surgery I needed.  Much of the dream was back and forth about which I should do first.


Naturally, I looked up the symbology of surgery, pregnancy, & knees.


To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Alternatively, if you are trying to get pregnant, then the dream may be a wish fulfillment. If you are not trying to get pregnant, but dream that you are, then it symbolizes fear of new responsibilities. 

To dream that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you, suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating. Nothing is working out the way you had anticipated. 

If you are really pregnant and have this dream, then it represents your anxieties about the pregnancy. If you are in your first  trimester of pregnancy, then your dreams tend to be about tiny creatures, fuzzy animals, flowers, fruit and water. In the second trimester, dreams will reflect anxieties about being a good mother and concerns about possible complications with the birth. Dreams of giving birth to a non-human baby are also common during this period of the pregnancy. Finally, in the third trimester, dreams consists of your own mother. As your body changes and grows, dreams of whales, elephants and dinosaurs and other larger animals may also start appearing at this stage of pregnancy.

To dream of your knees, symbolize a level of support you may be receiving. It also indicates that you are feeling very emotional. Feelings of inadequacy and issues of power/control also come into play. You may have more than you can handle.

To dream that you or someone else is undergoing surgery, signifies the opening of the Self and/or the need for emotional healing. You need to “cut out” or eliminate something from your life. Alternatively, a surgery suggests that you are feeling the influence of some authority figure. You are being swayed to act and behave a certain way. A more literal interpretation of this dream may reflect your concerns about upcoming surgery or about your health.

* Taken from Dreammoods.com

I’m not sure what it all really means. What do you think?









From the Kitchen…
August 7, 2011, 9:39 pm
Filed under: Cooking, Gardening | Tags: , , , , ,

Today my day consisted of laundry, grocery shopping, kombucha, and my first time in the kitchen with pesto & spring rolls (not together though, bleh!)

I had received a bunch of fresh basil from my friend Holly, so I thought I would try my hand at making my own pesto from scratch.  I heard it was easy so I thought I would attempt it.

First off, you should know, I rarely use recipes.  I have this second nature for most things cookery so most of the time I have a skeleton idea and just go from there.  The ingredients I were told to use were:

Basil Leaves


Pine Nuts (for cheaper substitution, cashews or any oily nut) 

Lemon Juice (yummy taste and basil preserver) 


Throw in food processor and you’re done..right?

As I started, I realized I wasn’t sure if it was safe to use basil leaves and stems or just leaves.  I did a quick google search and sure enough, use only the leaves.  I don’t think the stems will kill you or anything but I think it makes the pesto consistency change.

Lessons Learned: I need more basil. Also, I think the nuts need a few choppings more than the rest of the ingredients. I still think I’m going to use my less-than-perfect pesto for something.. maybe sauté with mushrooms?

I haven’t tried the spring rolls yet, you’ll have to stay tuned for the results.

Parenting Responsibility
August 7, 2011, 8:08 pm
Filed under: Love & Relating, Step-Parenting | Tags:

I believe you cannot be too upset by the choices your children make.  They are a direct representation of you and your parenting skills.  I also believe you must live the example you wish your children to be and to see.

If you want your child to grow up as an adult who is responsible and accountable for their feelings and emotions–you must be accountable for your emotions and feelings.  This means, you cannot fly off the handle the second something doesn’t go exactly how you would like it go.

If you want your child to be responsible with money or material possessions, make smart decisions, and be a contributing member of society– do not give your child everything, give them challenges to practice responsibility, and be a contributing member of society yourself.


If you would like your child to be accountable, be accountable.  Practice consistency and talk and reason through issues or problems.  Follow-through.  Return to issues and problems once they have been resolved and “check-in” with emotions and feelings.  This is going to reinforce accountability.


I know this is time consuming and tedious but do you realize you have the most important role on the planet? Raising and shaping the life of another human being? This is not to be ignored or taken lightly.  Parenting is full-time.  Even in your sleep, you are parenting.

I receive this information through observations of adults and children who are currently/have been in my life.  I also believe that if something doesn’t work–quit doing it.  Try something new.  Look at it with fresh eyes. People make mistakes. That is definitely understandable. Learn from your mistakes.  Loose your ego-if not for yourself, for the benefit of your childrens’ future.

Fall Beets!
August 7, 2011, 3:12 am
Filed under: Gardening, Outdoors, Uncategorized | Tags: , ,

I’m so excited! I learned yesterday I can plant beets for fall harvesting!  I guess beets grow best in cooler weather so the fall will consist of beets!

In preparation of these lovely purple veggies, I thought I would share a recipe I can’t wait to try! Hopefully, to inspire you as well!

I took this from Farmgirl Fare:

Give Beets A Chance:
Caramelized Beets With Garlic Recipe

So easy. Scrub your pile of fresh beets under running water. If the skins seem a bit thick or tough, you can peel them. (I’ve never made this with storebought beets—or ever bought beets at all, come to think of it—so I don’t know what the skins are like.) Trim tops and bottoms, then cut into about 1-inch dice.

Pour a generous amount of your favorite olive oil in a large skillet or pot and heat. Add beets, stir to coat with oil, then cook slowly, stirring often.

Meanwhile, peel several cloves of garlic, sprinkle them generously with salt, and chop them up. When the beets are fully cooked and caramelized, make a hole in the center of the beets and add the garlic, stirring around to make sure the garlic touches the bottom of the pan and cooks. Cook about 1 or 2 mintues; do not let garlic brown. Stir garlic into beets and serve.

If you happen to have any leftovers, they taste great the next day, either reheated or straight from the fridge.

Aww Passive-Aggressiveness…
August 7, 2011, 2:40 am
Filed under: Love & Relating, Uncategorized

*RANT*RANT*RANT*RANT* You have been warned–I think this is a rant!

…How I hate you so, passive-aggressiveness.  In fact, I outwardly admit that I hate you.  Yet, you are so alluringly inciting. How convenient it must be for those who live you and play your games. For the sake of my integrity and morality, I refuse to use you to get my point across.

Oh wait… that was somewhat passive-aggressive eh?

I don’t understand adults who play mind games with other adults.  I understand that my place in my relationship (to outsiders), seems a bit umm… precarious.  I can assure you, it is not.  I would appreciate some upfront honesty– at least occasionally.

What do you expect from your relationship with your in-laws or future in-laws? Respect? Honesty? Communication?

What do I get? Forced submission, questioning character.. etc etc. People- I did not ask for this.  What I did ask for was a happy, healthy relationship with the love of my life who happens to have a beautiful 4-year old daughter.  Which is what I have–most of the time.

I understand that nothing is permanent including the way people feel towards something.  Can we get to that part already? I am a person with feelings and interests and ideas.

How do you deal with passive-aggressive people? Seriously. There is no winning.

I have tried changing my mind. Seeing him and his stupid ways in a different light.  I have done nothing.  I have tried to “kill with kindness” (as my mother would say).  I would try to out-wit him; yet, my lovely boyfriend tells me it’s not worth trying.  SO-this usually ends up in me doing nothing.  And that, my friends, is frustrating.

Which leads me to this blog–being passive-aggressive about my boyfriends father.  I hope he reads this some day.  You are a jerk.