Something to be thankful for.
November 23, 2011, 4:43 am
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I’m struggling to find it.  I know I have a lot to be thankful for.  Family stuff is getting to be a little much this year.  My parents are planning to come to my house as I cook them Thanksgiving dinner. Micheal’s family is meeting later that evening.  I don’t want to rush my family out the door. I know my mother will be more concerned about me getting to his family.  I think sometimes she forgets she is a person with feelings, too.  I don’t know what I should do.   Micheal wants me to relax and not worry.  With all of the experiences from this year, how can I not worry? He says that it takes less energy to worry about it.  I agree, but I concern myself with the bigger picture. It’s hard for me to just go on through life and pretend like I’m not deeply hurt by the actions of the past. 

I just miss my childhood, big-family gatherings.  I wish I could experience that with my own family (Micheal & Isabelle).  My childhood family is now too large to gather more than once a year it seems. Micheals family makes me feel weird and awkward.  All I could have ever wished for was a family that welcomed me with open arms. ugh. i feel like crying. 



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I find myself on my own this year but I’ve certainly been where you are before.

Not having read your previous posts, I’m ignorant to your backstory. However, I know how it is to feel torn between time commitments.

All that I can offer is to suggest that you look out for yourself this holiday season. Spend time as YOU want to and don’t look back. Sure, a nose may get out of joint here or there but it’s worth it.

Life’s too short to worry about pleasing everyone all the time. Do what you want and in the end, you’ll be left with memories that you can cherish, instead of resentment.

Good luck!

Comment by Still Got All My Parts

Just start speaking their language…they’ll love you!

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