October 26, 2011, 4:43 am
Filed under: Camping, Hiking, Love & Relating, Massage Therapy, Outdoors, Spirituality, Uncategorized

No one can deny this year has not only brought about change but in fact a tidal wave of change that has really shook things up to say the least. I have learned a lot. I have grown.  I have groaned.  I have laughed.  I have cried. I have loved.

Many people talk about how change effects them.  I forget which sign thrives in change.  I’d like to think I roll with change well. I have learned some very valuable tools about myself and I believe that awareness is the first step to freedom.

In June, Micheal and I went camping.  It was an amazing trip! He had told me about the trip up the mountain and how tiring it could be but as the days went on it became easier.  We parked the car, walked up the lane, checked in and paid our money, crossed a river and immediately started up the mountain.  I thought we would be at the main base for a bit before heading upwards.  Half way up the mountain I stopped in a pant.  I realized something huge about my life.  I find it important to mentally prepare myself before a vast change in my environment occurs.  Ok, duh, right? I know it’s small but, yet, so huge.  The was the first moment that I realized if only I would have been able to say to myself, “Ok, now you are going to be exerting a lot of energy to get up this mountain.” I believe that first walk up would have been totally different.  Since then, I have found many examples of how if only that slight switch in thought would totally change a situation.  The question then arises, how can you handle moments that have no moment to switch your thought? How can I challenge my brain to be flexible in any given situation? I choose to see the face of change as comforting instead of scary.

I went to school for a new modality.  I will now be using my feet to massage clients instead of my hands.  The technique is called Ashiatsu.  I have found that some people have some real reservations about someone putting their feet all over them. I find myself feeling anxious about telling a client about it or introducing it.  I had a very hard time getting the bars installed in the ceiling to the point where I began to think it was going to be impossible to actually practice this modality.  I had these thoughts creep in my head that I wasted all of the money on school and my career was over because my hands were going to give out on me before I could figure something out.  All the while dealing with the usual pressure and stress of my life.. money, the ex-wife, the future father-in-law, bills, family.. etc etc. ugh. How much more convenient it would be if I could just roll with change? That could be one less thing I would have to worry about.

The future of Ashi is looking a lot brighter which is making the rest of the world shape up but for a moment, I felt very bleek.

Change. I’m not talking about those dirty coins at the bottom of your purse.

I see change happening all over the world.  You would truly have to live under a rock not to see that something huge is happening all around us.  There is a major shift occurring and we are all being forced to ride the wave and challenge our humanity.  Personally, I would like us all to view this as a challenge the Universe has provided to test our trust in each other. Seeing this small switch in the way I am viewing the situation is paramount for success on the other side of the shift. We will need to drop our current brain chatter that is convincing us the world is to always be the same. We will need to work hard and work together.

I believe in myself and I believe in our world and I believe in our future as long as we learn to come together.


September Newsletter
September 13, 2011, 5:25 pm
Filed under: Massage Therapy | Tags: , ,

I figured I would start posting my newsletter here as well as sending it to my clients. Enjoy.


Welcome to Fall! 

September Specials! 

This month was a little behind due to my preparation for an EXCITING new addition to my massage coming the end of October!


For September: $20 off 1 hour regular priced massage ($70)**

Call 314-882-2586 to book your appointment!! 


To read more about the EXCITING new addition coming in October, please follow the link below:




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As summer leaves us and we welcome fall, take a moment to honor yourself and your 

health!  As the seasons change, it is a great time to attune your body to the forward 

motion into the next pattern.  There are many ways to do a cleanse and finding the right 

cleanse that feels the best to you is most important.

I thought I would share a simple recipe to inspire you 🙂 


Avocado & Apple Salad

Prep Time: 10 Minutes

Yields: 4 servings

This salad is suprisingly delicious!

2 avocado – peeled, pitted and diced
1 large green apple – cored and diced
2 tablespoons honey
1/2 cup raisins, soaked in water and drained
1 tablespoon hulled raw sunflower seeds




1.In a medium bowl, combine the avocados, apple and raisins. Drizzle with honey, and sprinkle with raw sunflower seeds.


(Taken from http://yogamurrieta.com/node/201)


Thank you! Namaste! 


**Your appointment must be booked before Oct 11, 2011. Appointments are based on availability and will be unavailable after Oct 11, 2011.

My Mama.
September 9, 2011, 4:18 pm
Filed under: Love & Relating, Spirituality | Tags: , , , , ,

With all of the coverage on NPR about the 10th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks on the World Trade Center, I have stopped listening to 90.7 for the weekend.  Not because I’m against the coverage but because every time I hear a story, I end up crying!

I should preface this by saying, the whole 9/11 attacks have been fuzzy to me.  I didn’t know anyone in New York at the time. I still haven’t met anyone who had someone close to them die in the 9/11 event.  I remember sitting in Mrs. Pontious’ Geometry class when the planes hit and thinking, “Why are they showing us this weird movie? And why is the entire school stopping for this?”  It wasn’t until later that I realized the severity of the situation.  I mean, give me a break, I was in high school; I was way more worried about what everyone else was doing in school rather than the world.  I’m not against our country but I’m not super patriotic.  I’m not the kind of person you will find “Americana” decor in my kitchen or have American flag checks.  That’s just not me.  I do take a basic interest in politics and the policies the politicians create.  I also feel like I don’t really have a huge say in what happens so I’m not going to get really worked up if it doesn’t come out the way I had hoped.

Anyway. I heard this heart-wrenching story from a girl who lost her mom on the plan that hit the towers.  She now goes around the country telling her story to others.  Honestly, I don’t even remember her name.  She says her mom gave her this moral obligation to change the world through her story.  I think that’s beautiful but that’s not what made me cry.  She said on the 10th anniversary she will be spending the day on the countryside where her mom like to go out and “be with the day.”  Shortly after the attacks, she went out to that spot and she felt she could “feel” her mothers presence as there was no wind yet the ferns were moving.  That is also beautiful but did not make me cry.  (it’s interesting to me how so many people have these metaphysical, unexplained events and it’s totally acceptable when someone dies but that’s a whole other story we can get into later.)   She mentioned how it was hard to believe that she hadn’t spoke to her mom in 10 years.  This is what made me cry like a baby! I had put myself in her shoes at that moment and imagined my life without talking to my mom for 10 years! I jumped on the phone and told my mom I loved her and thanked her for being such a huge support in my life.

Through all of the crap my partner and I have been going through, I can tell she does her best to keep a calm, cool neutral approach.  How amazing is that? I mean, it’s so much easier to fly off the handle in an emotional rage (trust me, I’ve done it) than to take a few deep breathes and keep moving forward.  This may be easier for her because it’s not her situation but her support for me has been exceptional.

I really attribute my logic and roots to both of my parents.  As different as we all are, they are really great.  I’m so thankful and full of gratitude for their continued support through my life.  They don’t always take my side and do their best to give me the straight facts even though I may not want to hear it!  I appreciate the tough love.  They have taught me how to take care of myself, how to rely on myself, and how to trust myself. What a beautiful lesson in a world full of chaotic people.

The moral of the story: Hug your parents today!

September 2, 2011, 5:15 am
Filed under: Cooking, Gardening | Tags: , , ,

On a whim, I decided to buy a seed pack of Wheatgrass seeds. I’ve heard wheatgrass is super awesome for you and I know it’s used in smoothies quite often. I planted it and in about 2 days I had sprouts!

2 Days!

2 Days!

Ok.. now that I have sprouts..what do I do with them?

I’ve heard in the past that you need a special juicer so you don’t clog a regular juicer.  Tonight, while Micheal is sleeping and I’m not, I thought I would do some research. I came across a really good article on the benefits of wheatgrass. The full article can be found here:


The low-down on juicers: 

  • Electric juicers are expensive.  The cheapest one was $299.
  • The reason you should use a wheatgrass juicer instead of a regular juicer.  Just as I suspected, the grass can actually clog your juicer.  Furthermore, the high speed of the blade can actually oxidize the enzymes.  Which means you may loose some of the goodness you are trying to achieve by consuming wheatgrass. Regular juicers have an RPM of 1000 and wheatgrass juicers have an RPM of 80-120.  (I found this info on the same website as above).
  • There is another option! A Manual Juicer!! Which looks a lot like the canning materials my parents used to use for tomatoes.  On this website, the manual juicers were still $95.  (This image is from the same website as above)


  • On Livestrong.com, they mention putting wheatgrass into a blender and then straining the juice. I wonder about the oxidizing of enzymes, the blender seems pretty harsh too.


  • I did find on livestrong.com, that most people do not ingest the blades because they are fibrous and do not digest well.


Well- I’m still not sure what I’m going to do with this wonderful sun food.  I do know–I want it in my body.

Wake Up Slow…
August 8, 2011, 7:40 pm
Filed under: Dreams


They are too random to not mean anything.
Twice I have had a dream about being pregnant and worried about the fetus slipping out.  I wake up with my legs clenched together.  What the heck is that supposed to mean? I’ve had dreams about being pregnant my whole life, even when I was a kid, but nothing like this.

The first one was last week and I was supposed to be the surrogate to my brother and his girlfriend.  I was carrying their baby but I was worried about the baby coming out too soon.

That same night, I dreamt Micheal had disappeared and I couldn’t find him anywhere.  There were two black limos that pulled up to our one-room house. They dropped off a really scary prisoner and tried to convince me this was Micheal.  Some lady who reminded me of Lara Croft Tomb Raider came to save me from the scary prisoner.  Somehow I thought this was Micheal reincarnate.  She felt a lot like him in her presence.  Which, honestly, is quite humorous in my waking life.  The scary prisoner was loosing his hair and was really greasy and had human teeth for finger nails.

I woke up freaking out to Micheal and scared he had gone away.  I told him about the dream and he told me he had a dream about black limos.  Weird.  I can’t tell you how often we have the same dreams in the same night or at least common threads in our dreams.  What is that about?

This morning, I had dreamt that I was pregnant but I didn’t believe I was pregnant.  I was concerned because I had drank some wine the night before (and in my waking life, I actually did) and I was worried the baby would have Fetal Alcohol Syndrome.  Again, I was concerned the baby wasn’t coming out the normal way of water breaking and contractions.  I was ready to be induced but my belly looked like I was only three months pregnant but I had all of the stretch marks.  The doctor was trying to decide to if he should induce me first or perform the knee surgery I needed.  Much of the dream was back and forth about which I should do first.


Naturally, I looked up the symbology of surgery, pregnancy, & knees.


To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Alternatively, if you are trying to get pregnant, then the dream may be a wish fulfillment. If you are not trying to get pregnant, but dream that you are, then it symbolizes fear of new responsibilities. 

To dream that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you, suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating. Nothing is working out the way you had anticipated. 

If you are really pregnant and have this dream, then it represents your anxieties about the pregnancy. If you are in your first  trimester of pregnancy, then your dreams tend to be about tiny creatures, fuzzy animals, flowers, fruit and water. In the second trimester, dreams will reflect anxieties about being a good mother and concerns about possible complications with the birth. Dreams of giving birth to a non-human baby are also common during this period of the pregnancy. Finally, in the third trimester, dreams consists of your own mother. As your body changes and grows, dreams of whales, elephants and dinosaurs and other larger animals may also start appearing at this stage of pregnancy.

To dream of your knees, symbolize a level of support you may be receiving. It also indicates that you are feeling very emotional. Feelings of inadequacy and issues of power/control also come into play. You may have more than you can handle.

To dream that you or someone else is undergoing surgery, signifies the opening of the Self and/or the need for emotional healing. You need to “cut out” or eliminate something from your life. Alternatively, a surgery suggests that you are feeling the influence of some authority figure. You are being swayed to act and behave a certain way. A more literal interpretation of this dream may reflect your concerns about upcoming surgery or about your health.

* Taken from Dreammoods.com

I’m not sure what it all really means. What do you think?








From the Kitchen…
August 7, 2011, 9:39 pm
Filed under: Cooking, Gardening | Tags: , , , , ,

Today my day consisted of laundry, grocery shopping, kombucha, and my first time in the kitchen with pesto & spring rolls (not together though, bleh!)

I had received a bunch of fresh basil from my friend Holly, so I thought I would try my hand at making my own pesto from scratch.  I heard it was easy so I thought I would attempt it.

First off, you should know, I rarely use recipes.  I have this second nature for most things cookery so most of the time I have a skeleton idea and just go from there.  The ingredients I were told to use were:

Basil Leaves


Pine Nuts (for cheaper substitution, cashews or any oily nut) 

Lemon Juice (yummy taste and basil preserver) 


Throw in food processor and you’re done..right?

As I started, I realized I wasn’t sure if it was safe to use basil leaves and stems or just leaves.  I did a quick google search and sure enough, use only the leaves.  I don’t think the stems will kill you or anything but I think it makes the pesto consistency change.

Lessons Learned: I need more basil. Also, I think the nuts need a few choppings more than the rest of the ingredients. I still think I’m going to use my less-than-perfect pesto for something.. maybe sauté with mushrooms?

I haven’t tried the spring rolls yet, you’ll have to stay tuned for the results.

Parenting Responsibility
August 7, 2011, 8:08 pm
Filed under: Love & Relating, Step-Parenting | Tags:

I believe you cannot be too upset by the choices your children make.  They are a direct representation of you and your parenting skills.  I also believe you must live the example you wish your children to be and to see.

If you want your child to grow up as an adult who is responsible and accountable for their feelings and emotions–you must be accountable for your emotions and feelings.  This means, you cannot fly off the handle the second something doesn’t go exactly how you would like it go.

If you want your child to be responsible with money or material possessions, make smart decisions, and be a contributing member of society– do not give your child everything, give them challenges to practice responsibility, and be a contributing member of society yourself.


If you would like your child to be accountable, be accountable.  Practice consistency and talk and reason through issues or problems.  Follow-through.  Return to issues and problems once they have been resolved and “check-in” with emotions and feelings.  This is going to reinforce accountability.


I know this is time consuming and tedious but do you realize you have the most important role on the planet? Raising and shaping the life of another human being? This is not to be ignored or taken lightly.  Parenting is full-time.  Even in your sleep, you are parenting.

I receive this information through observations of adults and children who are currently/have been in my life.  I also believe that if something doesn’t work–quit doing it.  Try something new.  Look at it with fresh eyes. People make mistakes. That is definitely understandable. Learn from your mistakes.  Loose your ego-if not for yourself, for the benefit of your childrens’ future.